I don't understand how I feel When I heard that you would go to there for advanced educatidon.Actually I just tried to be informed by you of the news ,But you didn't.
I used to feel that you belong to her ,So I did nothing but to wait for your breaking up.Finally I got it.
But I was not happy coz' you were not.
I uesd to feel that we can be together at any rate,and then I attempt to catch the teeling but in vain..We could talk about Jesse ,We could talk about Natsu and Grey.But We couldn't talk about what I really want though everything we involved made me happy.I had never met someone who matched my feeling so deep..However ,It always made me sick because of my weakness .I gave up ,and gave up again,Which led to my mistake.
Do U understand my feeling when I met you in the supermarket?I screamed and sreamed when I was seated in the cinema beside U.My hands shaked when I held my cup of tea.
I really felt like that..** belong together.
But I realized that was another dream made by myself.So I turned around and ran away.I was so afraid that it was a joke .
I read you message and your content under my article and felling.I can't believe that I can treat you as a common friend like I had known you so long ago. Although I used to fell sad when I saw you&her in the classroom and even burst to tears,and it didn't mean anything at all.I knew I can't take you off.
Now I know that you would leave and may never see you again.I felt so relieve,but sad somehow.I saw you the day before,and you walked by.I said nothing ,so did you.Then I got disturbia,I couldn't help my emotion and kept my poker face at all..When I realized that,I didn't mean to blame you anything but do it to my self.
Yeah,I just don't know how to push it away ,or Throw it out.I can't help thingking of Dong,who has gone to Russia so far away.I felt that sad felling when he's gone.Now it's comin' back to me now.I don't know how can I make it through like last time I did.
Listenin' to songs we used to talk about, I'm reminded of something about our words.It was Jesse McCartney,It was Justin and Britney,It was Love bug,It was A little not too over you...And even in How do you sleep.I can't forget about [I've been missin' you crazy,So how do you,How do you sleep],About LIJiang,About Natsu and Grey.It surprised me a lot.
Now you make me so tangled.
I want to calm down by myself.
All that love affairs.They're not belonging to me.
